Thursday, July 30, 2009

Changes

Ok so I haven't had my blog too long but i do want to change some things.

I wanna make my posts smaller

I wanna change the color and make it more intersting to look at

I wanna make my posts a little more interesting


And I wanna get some more readers

And thanks to some tips I've recently received (thank you sooo much) I will learn how to do all of this lol

I love my closet its huge and filled with clothes

So I can always tell when its not an exciting day cause I wanna talk about more boring topics hahaha

I wanted to talk about being in the closet.

now with me I wouldn't say I'm in the closet I just haven't told everyone yet. I mean if they came up and asked me I would tell them straight up but I'm not just gonna blurt it out, its nobodys business but mine and whoever I plan on being with so whatever.

I hate the people that know someones gay or bi or whatever and pressure them to tell everyone. Like its really noones business in the first place, and second what are you gonna do send a christmas card with I'm gay written inside......I don't think so....I mean if you want to tell the whole world soo be it but for me I feel like its noone business but if they ask me I will tell them straight up whether its what they want to hear or not I am my own person and if you can't respect that then I don't need you in my life. Like it was funny cause I was riding in the car with my dad one day and we were talking about this movie....what was it....I think it was like epic movie or meet the spartans or one of those stupid movies well we were talking about how there were a lot of homoerotic scenes in that movie and it made him uncomfortable....and him saying that kinda made me mad cause he doesn't say that when he's watching his porn movies and some guys dick is all in some girls mouth. But two guys kissing makes him uncomfortable because they were both guys get over it! And I didn't say it but I was thinking what will happen when I bring a boyfriend over for christmas or something and I'm making out with him are you gonna be uncomfortable? I was gonna say it but....I thought otherwise lol

Now back to the closet thing. Honestly I actually like being around someone who's in the closet because when he's with you its different because your sneaking around and its more risky...idk I think it would feel different but I don't really know anything cause I've never been with a guy before...or really a girl for that matter lol I only had on girl in my life and we weren't even dating lol I just obsessed over her and didn't want to be with anyone eslse lol

And I think too for me its different because I can be with a boy or a girl so its...idk what the word is but...

And people tell me oh how do you know if you like boys if you've never been with one?

All I did was look down and was like because everytime I see a hot guy that thing gets excited and I pointed to my pants haha it was awesome we both laughed about it lol

But to wrap things up if someones having a problem coming out of the closet buy them some more clothes to put in there! Don't pressure them to come out its nobodys business

Xoxo
Superstar

Absolutly Nothing

So today for me was absolutly boring. I didn't go anywhere I didn't do anything, I woke up and stayed in pajamas all day long lol

I do get to sleep in A's bed though which is awesome cause it smells soo good! He came home yesterday but I didn't even get to see him cause I didn't get my lazy butt up and he was already gone early this morning =( I Just hope I get to see him before I leave on Monday =( I want to party with him again..lol

Omg I have to tell the story about the first time I partied with him. It wasn't too long ago but it was good cause I was drinking some tequila and 7up (nasty) and ended up drinking more than a half a bottle of this cheap tequila, like the cheapest kind (now normally I only drink patron but we got it for free and noone else drank the shit so I was like screw it lol) but anyways I was like the only one drinking and everyone else was sitting watching aqua teen hunger force I think something about talking french fries and a talking soda or something like that. Well by this time I was already kinda drunk and trying to sit on this chair and couldn't cause the room was spinning and I fell on top of him while he was sitting on the couch hehehehe it was awesome he smelt sooo good and he didn't rush to get me off him he was just like laughing and helping me up lol but mmmm it was soo awesome lol. Then I convinced him to sleep in the bed with me (before I started drinking) and so after a while after I fell on him he was like ok I'm goin to bed. I wasn't really ready to go to bed but I knew he was going to bed so I wanted to lay with him so I went to lay down and there were already two other friends sleeping but it was a huuuuge bed we could all fit so we layed down and me and A werre sooo close like bodies touching and it was soo hot and we were talking our faces right by each others I could of stuck my tongue out and licked him lol (I didn't but wanted to lol) and I was sooo drunk I'm pretty sure I had that look in my eyes like I wanna jump your bones right now lol. So it ended up with him falling asleep I was awake throwing up lol and when I went back to bed I got as close as I could to him and was holding on to him and I told him the room is spinning and your making it better lol so he let me and it was such a hot moment we should have got it on lol

Well that wasn't my day but oh well I like that story lol

But that's all that happened today lame right! I know more will happened tomorrow I can feel it lol

Xoxo
superstar

My Profile

Ok so as you can all see my profile is a little dull and boring. Now before trying to get people to come read my blog I probably should have thought about that before but....I didn't lol. One thing that's setting me back is I do everything for my phone. Its a nice expensive phone that does a lot but it doesn't do everything so until I have the chane to use a computer I will just have to wait to make my blog exactly how I want it lol.

Like I want a picture so I can not look like some wierdo who has no picture. But just wanted to say its not quite done yet the way I want it lol. But enjoy until then =)

Thanks

Xoxo
Superstar

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Hey everyone sooo my day was....interesting.

Let's just say somethings happened today that I would have preferred didn't happen... for example someone I know who used to be really close to me I used to live with him for some of my little child years showed me his shoe collection. You might be wondering well that's not so bad but..he's a crossdresser. Now I don't have anything against it I mean I don't hate on anybody for it or whatever but I don't need it flaunted in front of my face. But I will post my opinion on that issue in a different post.

So I was at the pool today....omg I love the pool I always find at least one hot guy there and just drool over him all day lol hoping to see him in the locker room changing lol. Well I found one. Now I wasn't actually in the pool I was there with my friend while she was babysitting and the kid she was babysitting was in the pool so I got to oooh and awww for a while over this guy. I think he was gay too or at least curious. But anyways he was gorgeous. Lol

I also just found out like 10 min ago that A is coming home tonight =D I wonder why though but I don't care at least I get to see him =) I'm excited I've been missing him.

You know what I realized I loove! Hot boys sucking on a lollipop without any hands in their mouth oooo that is soooo hot! They have to be cute though but omg lol.

I found some other blogs I like reading which is good hopefully they will read mine =)

Oh ya and you can follow my twitter at twitter.com/superstarsblog

My other twitter got hacked which is one I allllways use and I'm having withdrawls lol I need twitter lol

Well that's pretty much it for today I'm gonna post some other posts .

Xoxo
Superstar

Its all about A

So today nothing happened...nothing exciting anyways. But then there's after I go to bed. I get to sleep in A's bed tonight! Yay! Mmm his room smells like him and its freaking delicious. But while I'm in here I kinda look around for anything interesting you know anything sexual would be really hot lol. Well I saw this notebook. I started looking throught it (I know its wrong forgive me) but I started looking through it and he's a pretty messed up kid =/ he talks about killing himself because he's depressed and noone sees that. (I always suspected it but...) and this notebook I guess is like his journal which I know I shouldn't be reading but I wanna get in his head. So I was reading it and he talks about how much he neeeds his girlfriend and how blah blah and how he misses her. And I'm thinking....damn I would never let someone control me lke that or make me crazy like that. But really some of the things were really sad and I felt soo bad for him. =(

I fantasized about me sitting down and talking to him about everything and just letting him vent and talk and whatever. And we would be in his delicious smelling room and just talk about everything and he would open up and cry and would tell him to hug me eventhough were both guys and he's straight to hug me when he's crying and I would be his shoulder to cry on. I think that would be really awesome lol. I mean maybe he's had enough of girl drama and just wants to be with a guy. I COULD BE THAT GUY! Idk just a little thought but sounds pretty good. But honestly I haven't even talked to him in forever cause he's been staying at a friends house working =( I do miss him though and want to just give him a huuuge hug =/ he really needs someone right now who's not just gonna be a lover but he3 needs someone he can trust to talk about things and I can tooootally be that person for him but I don't want it to be weird....

I think I'm gonna write a letter to him and leave it in his room right before I leave so he can read it and call me or text me or whatever...I figure we've known each other for too long to be worried about being weird hahaha

Well I think that's all for today idk if there's gonna be another post today but we will see...

Xoxo
Superstar

Monday, July 27, 2009

Meat or Stuffing?

This is always something I have wondered. You know when your walking down the street and there's always one guy who has a huuuuuge bulge in his pants. I mean you don't see any defining lines but there's obviously something packin in there lol. So my question is do they stuff it? Idk anyone who would stuff their underwear just to make it seem like they have a huge dick.....but who knows lol. Like you see celebrities like the super hot Taylor Lautner with a huge bulge in a papparazzi picture. Omg that's soo hot! But I mean I would never go out with my dick soo obvious like that lol.

I mean it does kinda make me hot knowing that other guys are looking at my package like in the locker rooms I tootally take all my clothes off to change right in front of everybody I get hard first so it looks bigger but ya I love it when other guys are checking my dick out! And if I'm peeing in a urinal ill stand a little bit back so if they want to peek they can. You would be surprised at how many people check it out. I always check tout all the guys too so...and this one time I was peeing and it was right after a movie and the bathrooms are always packed after a huge movie and I always have to go check out the penis...always! So I was there actually peeing this time and some guys checking out my package and he scoots back a little so I can see his now he was older than me like 20 something so his was bigger but I think that is something all guys should do is let the next guy see your dick but that's just me lol. And it wasn't anything sexual just I saw your now here's mine if you choose to look and ya I looked the whoole time lol


Xoxo
Superstar

Morning Wood

Ok so if your a guy you know exaaactly what I'm talking about. If your a girl this might be a little educational lol.


Morning wood has got to sometimes be the most annoying thing in the whole world! I absolutly hate it!...sometimes. now don't get me wrong sometimes its a good thing you know when your alone and you got some time it will toootally make your day worth while but other that that blah!

Now when other guys have it! That toooootally turns me on! Like one time I was at a friends house sleeping over, I must have been about...15 maybe 14 we slept in the same bed he "pretended" to jack off. Which I think he was really cause I could smell his cum after lol. And when he went to sleep I admit I got a little curious down there and started to check it out, couldn't see anything so went to sleep. Well the next morning I guess we both woke up and we were wrestling a little bit I guess and I made it to where he fell off the bed, well he was wearing boxers and his dick was sticking straight out of those things and I toootally saw it! And he kinda ran off to the bathroom and he was in there for a while I have a pretty good idea what he was doing lol. But its ok cause I was doing the same thing! Lol but ya I thought that was really hot!

Other than that...I haven't really seen another guy have a morning wood except my cousin sorta who I wanted to see how big he was anyways so one morning we got up and whatever and then his mom and dad were picking on him and his shirt kinda went up and I saw a little bulge real quick though but...you know lol.

But I would not mind seeing a guy with morning wood again lol

It is just soo annoying when you have one in the morning and its hard to pee and you don't walk around in front of people because they would see your big dick sticking straight out! Lol But I know I haaate having morning wood lol but you know the cure for that is I usually take care of some wood before I go to sleep and I usually don't wake up with one the next day lol


Xoxo
Superstar

Whaaat happened today

Today was...interesting. Most of the day it was boring but twice today I got to see A! Omg he cut his hair and looked soo cute. He came in was surprised to see me (it was the morning so I was in my pajamas and had bed head but whatev) and he was talkin about something and then left lol. Then came back grabbed a clean pair of boxers and left again lol. Omg he is soo cute! I wish he was here more so I could just admire how hot he is lol.

I talking to K today we've been not talking for about a week now and she finally told me today she was jealous of me and J. And its soo funny cause I kept telling her just because I'm all gaga over J doesn't mean I don't like you lol. She doesn't quite understand that. OMG and I found out today that J is now siingle!!! but it sucks I already told K I wouldn't be like that with J because they are roomates =( but whatevs its ok I guess we will just have to wait and see what happens.

So what else happened....see nothing to exciting oh my friends brother (who's house I'm staying at) I think is gay and wants me lol. Now let me explain something he is like my little brother I've known him since he was like 6 years old....he's 15 now I think annoying as hell sometimes but he just has that look in his eye that he wants to know what's in my pants. I don't have a problem with that. The thing is every morning when he's in his pajama pants you can see his bulge soft! Not hard but he's soft and its huuge! He's packin! Now I do often wonder what it would be like to ask him to whip it out and show me ill show you mine and he'd probably do it, but I'm not that forward of a person lol but I know he wants to see it lol. Like this morning he came into the room I was sleeping in when I woke upp I guess to see if I had morning wood lol (I'm gonna post about that) he kept lookin down there to see I didn't have one this morning or I would have layed on my back and showed him a little bit of a bulge haha

But ya that's about it for now I wonder what crazy escapades will happen tomorrow lol


Xoxo
Superstar

the daily agenda

So I've decided this is how I'm gonna work this blog. Just to get it started out it won't be so on track but it will work its way up lol.

so the first thing I will post is about what happened during the day that was interesting. Ill leave out the boring parts cause who wants to read those lol and ill post all the funny, crazy, hot things that happened during the day lol.

Then ill post a second post about what type of thing is on my mind that particular day and ya it will 95% be sexual lol

And then depending if it was a good thinking day ill post more but we will go with that for right now lol

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Hey guys so I wanted to make sure I made a post about the people in my life I have found I am crushing on or in love with at the moment lol. As of right this second there are two people I could just drop my whole life for and be with. Its actually funny cause


ones a girl who's absolutly gorgeous, she's nice, funny, clean. She can sing, she can dance, and she can cook! Omg right! Is there really such a perfect girl out there! Well yes and no she's not single =( but honestly when I met her she was sorta but not anymore. And I'm not really a homewrecker lol. And she always says how she wants to deflower me and she's always kissing my neck and hanging out and I feel like we have this good connection. But besides her having a boyfriend there's only one problem she is my best friends roommate.... let's refer to here as J

Now let me tell you about my friend I've known her for like 5 to 6 years and we hardly ever saw each other cause we lived in two different states but we kept in touch by texting and myspace and everything and now we live in the same state and I get the feeling she has feelings for me which are not mutual I do not see her in that way at all...but everytime I'm kinda talking to someone, like flirting and stuff she gets mad....but enough about her lol. Let's refer to her as K


The other person I really like is a guy. He's straight (I know I know) but he's soooo fine! I've actually known him since he was a little kid he's two years younger than me...but my other best friend since 3rd grade! Is his cousin so I've known him for quite a while. Even when we were all little I had this sorta feeling toward him but let me tell you he grew up to be one hot mother fu*ker! And the thing is is he's not shy. He will walk around half naked, he will go skinny dipping, he will show you his ass just because he thinks its funny! Lol have I ever been there for any of that....no! But he's sooo hot and I've slept in his bed and been through his stuff (not snooping but just like been around) and I mean we hang out and cool and party together and stuff. But omg he's soo hot! Just thinking about him gets me all hot and bothered haha. Buuuut there is a problem with him too lol. He's in a relationship with a girl who is pregnant and swears its his. I told him he needs to get it tested.....Let's refer to him as A.

More on them soon. I am actually staying at A's house for a week but from what I heard he's not really gonna be here =( but we will see =)


Xoxo
Superstar

soooo stupid!

Omg ok so I finished posting my first post and then I realized the url for my blog is mispelled! Omfg seriously!!! Haha I mean its no big deal its just missing one letter but....omg so my blog is confessions of a superstar and my url is cofessionsofasuperstar.blogspot.com omg lol but its cool just bookmark my page and you'll be peachy keen =) well onto the interesting stuff lol
Hey Everyone so this is pretty much the same as any other blogs first posting just a little information about who I am and my reason for posting on here and blah blah blah all the stuff blogs do or whatever lol. This is my first blog so bear with me here lol.

So first a little bit about who I am. I am a 19 year old guy who doesn't care what's said to me or what I say to people I mean I'm not gonna be mean on purpose but if you ask me if that outfit looks cute and it doesn't ill tell you it doesn't lol.

This blog is gonna be mainly about my daily adventures and activities that are interesting lol. Mainly they will have something to do with my sexuality more than anything.


HERE'S THE INTERESTING PART


So let's get something clear here. Since my blog is gonna be mostly about who I am and my sexuality and what I do to pursue that let me explain. I am not gay, I am not straight, I am not bi either, I like to think of myself as.......open minded lol. I can honestly say I can see myself with a guy or a girl. But I dont classify myself as bisexual because.....well I honestly hate that word so....lol. I do want to honestly say though I am more sexually attracted to guys and idk why exactly but....it just happens that way. Lol

ANOTHER THING YOU HAVE TO KNOW BEFORE HAND



So now that we got that clear ill say my blog is about my "sexual" adventures. if your wondering why its in quotations its cause its not about having sex since I am still a virgin but that's a different paragraph lol.

So let me explain ya I am a virgin I've never had sex. Big deal. I do believe it will happen this year since I am 19 now and I am more open and outgoing with people and I believe I will have sex this year. But its like...if it happens it happens if it doesn't it doesn't you know. I mean don't get me wrong you see someone super hot you wanna just rip off all their clothes and smack it up, rub it down, flip it all over but I'm not gonna jump into bed with anyone just because they are really hot lol.

Soo now that I made this post ginormous I will move onto another one lol

I hope you enjoy my blog and my life and everything because I know I do =)

Xoxo
Superstar