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Hey guys what's up with everyone?

So lately my life has been sooo lame! All I do is stay home and text and not even anyone important lol that guy I was texting we don't text anymore for some reason lol....oh well lol. I did like him cause he told me cute I was all the time lol.

I've been thinking about A a lot lately...it would be weird for me to just text him out of the blue...and plus his baby mama has his phone all the time anyways so its no use. I miss him though he was freaking fine as hell!

Me and J done really talk anymore idk why I'm sure if I texted her she would text me back but I don't necissarily have the desire to text her so idk...maybe this weekend. I'm gonna be with K pretty much all this weekend so that will be fun.

I've also decided I'm gonna be devirginized by the end of this year. Its not the act of sex I want to experience its just the act of being with someone in that way, having that connection with someone to sleep with them. You know ever since I've started hanging out with everyone since I moved I haven't met one virgin! Its like by this age they don't exist. And I don't mind being a virgin in a group of not virgins but when its all everyone talks about it makes it a little hard.

Does anybody by the age of 19 know any virgins? Lol ya I doubt it lol

But I'm serious about the talk always being about sex. And I mean aaaaalllways! And I just sit there quiet...and when people find out I'm a virgin they are completely shocked! Its ridiculous. Noones ever even seen down there except my doctor lol. And that hasn't happened in a long time either lol. I might have sent a dirty picture maybe but I don't exactly remember lol. I've seen a lot of dicks but noones ever seen mine lol.

So what do you all think of my little situation?

Thanks guys

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Hey guys. I feel sooo bad for not blogging in what feels like a month! But I have actually been busy lol. I have been at K's a lot lately and my phone is always dead there! Lol. But I'm at home now and felt like blogging. So here's what been going on lately.


So me and that guy who I've been texting haven't texted in a few days but my phone has been dead so I guess idk. Lol I was at a party like last week and met this awesome guy. And he was gay so it made it even better. Hopefully it isn't the last time I see him.

Oh and all my friends know I'm gay too which is not a bad thing. I didn't tell anyone people just assumed and I stopped correcting them I figured why waste my energy and just live it! Lol. I'm happy about it though no worries.

I have a new best friend!!! She's not a replacement from K she's still a best friend but I have another one! She's sooo awesome and we get along great. We are already really comfortable with each other its so much fun! We can call her "R". Ill be talking about her a lot so.

What else.....I'm moving out of my house soon and I will be waaay closer to everyone and be able to meet more people and have a good time which is amazing!

I haven't had a chance to read peoples blogs so I'm gonna catch up on my blog reading tonight.

So I've totally missed everyone and my blog has cobwebs on it which makes me sad. So I'm gonna try really hard to blog more often. But we will see.

There is something I wanted to talk about though. My week at K's house was fun but all everyone ever talks about is sex! Sex sex sex sex nothing else! I'm usually a quiet person anyways but when the conversation comes to sex (which it always does!) I'm just a little person in the corner not doing anything. Because I have nothing to talk about when it comes to sex because I have never had sex so you know its just a little awkward. And all the couples! Omg its soo weird when your with a group of people who are all couples and your the only one who's alone. Soo many times this past week I was the 3rd wheel or the 5th wheel its just sucks! Especially when my phone is dead and I can't use it to pretend I'm doing something haha.

So I will try and blog more I know I used to blog like every night and then I just stopped idk why exactly I just got busy or tired idk. I do really miss blogging though lol and hopefully when I move and am closer to everyone ill have more interesting stuff to talk about lol

Well thanks guys for reading =)

sooo sorry!!

Hey everyone. I'm sooo sorry I've been kinda non cosistant with my blogging and I'm not gonna lie I really haven't been busy just lazy I guess lol.

So my last post. I was saying how I met this guy and we've been texting and we haven't really been texting as much as we started to but that's ok. We talk about everything even people we are interested in like J and he has this girl or whatever idk lol but anyways its been fun.

Oh and thanks for the advice to be careful don't worry I would never meet someone in person that I met online alone. I would take K or someone or have her be in the background somewhere lol. Just to be safe lol.

So me and K are in a weird place we haven't been in the same place we usually are. Its kinda having me worried but whatever happens happens. Right now at this point I think we could use a break from each other for a while because I think we both are a little frustrated with each other.

Halloween was this weekend. Mine suucked! Big time! I was totally alone and by myself. In a way I guess it wasn't bad but it did kinda suck. It seems when we are single and alone holidays are just a huge reminder that we are alone lol. Don't get me wrong I looove holidays, Halloween especially but I noticed this year that being alone on a fun day like halloween sucks! Big time! I had noone to share the fun with. But J did ask if I wanted to party with her but I had no way of getting to her so it kinda sucked. She sent me a pic of her costume though =) it was really cute! Its taking sooo much of me to not text her every 5 minutes but I don't want her to think I'm bugging her so thats a problem. I can be very desperate sometimes.

Like with K I'm trying to take a stand and let her know things are not ok with us so I'm not texting her or anything until she contacts me first so I'm just waiting right now lol. But I am trying so hard not to be desperate and text her because I do want to talk to her and make up but I want to make a point that something is not right. So we will see how that works lol

So as you may know I am unenployed and so I venture over to the unemployment office and while I was searching through the jobs there was one where I had to talk to a counsler and see how they can help me get the job. Well it turned out the person who helped me was really really cool. He was gay and he automatically could tell the same for me so we talked a little and he was really cool. So helpful too I'm really glad he called my name instead of any of the other people there, I'm sure they are nice too but I'm glad I got him. He was telling me about this place where young gay kids hang out and stuff and I was really happy to find out and maybe I could go and venture out to meeting people.

so now that I am back I will read some blogs. I'm having some problems commenting so don't feel bad if I never comment your guys post. My phone sometimes doesn't work lol. But I'm reading them =)