still a kinda virgin...lol

omg so ok....my night tonight. was absolutly wild and crazy!!!!

so what im about to share with you guys is totally crazy and i mean if i cant share it with anyone else other than my blog followers who else can i share it with lol.

so first of lets say what happened in the beginning. i came over to K's house which was totally awesome because i want to see her and everything and i missed her. and i knew i wanted to get absolutly sooooo drunk!!!!! so i brought a bottle of vodka and she bought me a 40 of old englush (ghetto right hahha) well i drank half the bottle of vodka and half of the old english and i was smashed!!!! i mean smashed!!!!! i could walk, focus, stand, see, nothing lol. so after a while i starting feeling sick so i kinda threw up lol. and then i was fine and then we were chillin it was me, K, her boyfriend and another friend who we can call S. well me and s have known each other for a while now and everything and it was suuper fun hanging out with her. and before i threw up we were making out. lol i made out with S, with K's boyfriend (dont worry shes fine with it lol) and K!! it was sooo fun! usually i get kinda grossed out with the whole tongue in my mouth thing but it didnt bother me i guess because i was in the moment and everything was awesome lol. but anyways thats not the interesting part lol

so me and S were just chillin on the bed we made out a little more (after i brushed my teethe though haha) and we were talking about how im a virgin and how i need to lose that lol. so we all decided my virginity was gonna be gone by the end of the night lol. so we were making out and then we all decided we needed condoms so we were gonna go to the store and then i threw up again lol. so after i was done with that and me and K were talking and saying how we were both ok with what was gonna happen and everything i brushed my teeth again and then me and S went into the room and she was taking my clothes off because we pretty much decided we were having sex tonight lol and she was feeling me up and everything and heres the part i can only share with my blog followers. it wasnt working!!! i wasnt working down there! idk what happened or what but down there was not working out for me so good. if you know what i mean. so after a while of feeling it up and then she sucked on it a little bit it got a little excited and then we put a condom on and then she got on top of me and then we tried and then.....guess what happened.....it died again lol.

it was sooo lame! we were both naked i felt her up she was feeling me up everything was good and then she got on top and it just went....dead lol.

now idk why it happened im guess probably because i was hammered lol. but idk....but she totally knows how i like boys and i am more attracted to boys than girls and so she understood so she set me up with this gay bpy she knows who is really cute. im sure it wouldnt turn into something more than just a fling but i know i would want my first time to be with someone hot lol. and believe me he is lol. we were texting a little bit and everything and hes really nice. and seems like a good boyfriend but he told me hes not really looking for a boyfriend so thats totally fine with me.

but the sad thing is i couldnt do it! i totally had my chance to have sex and it totally wasnt happening. which is ok S is my friend and idk what it would have down if we actually did do it but i guess we will never know lol

but i am starting to ramble and kinda fall asleep typing so i will post tomorrow and see if i remeber everything anyways lol.

tomorrow night

Hey guys. So tomorrow night is the night everyones going out clubbing and I am hoping soooo bad to go. The only thing keeping me from going is how poor I am! Lol I absolutly have no money lol. I want to go sooo bad. Not only do I love going out but there's a chance one of my friends wants to bring a guy for me to meet =). Hopefully everything works out!

I've been stuck in the house all weekend and I am ready to party!!! Lol its been way to long since the last time I partied...mainly because of the move and stuff. But I'm just crossing my fingers to go!

So let's see what else is going on in my life....absolutly nothing lol. Its hard to blog when nothing exciting is going on lol.

You know what I need....a sugar daddy! Ha! imagine that lol.

Well hope you guys had a good weekend and everything was awesome!

Zac always makes me feel better =)

here's some pictures of zac to cheer everyone up =) he is so cute! I just can't get enough of him. I have to admit though he wasn't that great looking when he was younger but when he got older he turned into a gorgeous piece of man!

Oh and ps the picture of him with that little boy its so cute! Idk if that's his relative or just some little kid but it looks like he is soo nice and caring.

I can't wait to go to the beach one day and see him there all wet and half naked. Lol I would defintely take as many pictures that my camera would hold! Lol I can dream lol

tonight!

Hey guys. So tonight was fun. I went out to dinner with some friends and it so fun because now our new house I am closer to everyone so I have more freedom to leave when I want. Lol

So dinner was fun just a few friends having some girl talk time lol. And in a few days we are supposed to go clubbing and guess what?! One of my friends has a friend, a single friend she wants to hook me up with =). I think that would be awesome! I don't know much about him yet but I know he's going out with us when we go to the club. I'm excited! Now I definetly have to go. Lol.
So that's pretty much all that's been happening in my life lol.

Oh idk if you guys remember from a while ago but A who was expecting a baby isn't expecting anymore, they had the baby a few days ago. I guess it came out looking like him because I haven't heard anything about it lol. (There was some speculation lol) but I'm happy for him. I have been thinking about him a lot though lately. I know its silly to think about someone who's absolutly 100% unavailable but its a little hard to get over him lol. A few weeks ago I went out of town for thanksgiving and I was so close to him! Like so close! It was sooo frustrating I wasn't able to see him. Lol but that's enough about that lol

I'm thinking of starting a video blog also. I have some kinks to work out but I'm hoping it will be able to happen. So stay tuned. I think id be able to be more in contact with people that way. I would still blog here too so don't worry about that. I'm serious about trying to make this blog better than it was before.

Oh and one last thing. I'm trying to figure out why its so difficult to post comments on peoples blogs using my phones web browser so don't feel left out if you don't get comments from me. I am reading your blogs though. It works on some blogs but not everyones. Lol.

Well ill talk to you all later =)

here i am!

Hey guys. I know I haven't blogged in forever but now I actually have a good reason lol. I was moving into a new house which took foooorever!!! And have just been suuper busy with a lot of other things and just haven't had the time.

I missed blogging so much because there is always something on my mind and I know I can always express it with you all here so I hope I can be more on the ball about it.

My blog has cobwebs and I'm here to dust them off. Hopefully I will stick to it lol. I will get this blog up and running better than before and it will be a lot easier now because ill actually have more life experiences to talk about because I am closer to everyone since I moved so look forward to that =)

And also if there are any new bloggers that have started blogging since I've been gone fill me in. In the meantime I'm gonna read some of your blogs and see what's going on in everyone elses lives =)