still a kinda virgin...lol

omg so ok....my night tonight. was absolutly wild and crazy!!!!

so what im about to share with you guys is totally crazy and i mean if i cant share it with anyone else other than my blog followers who else can i share it with lol.

so first of lets say what happened in the beginning. i came over to K's house which was totally awesome because i want to see her and everything and i missed her. and i knew i wanted to get absolutly sooooo drunk!!!!! so i brought a bottle of vodka and she bought me a 40 of old englush (ghetto right hahha) well i drank half the bottle of vodka and half of the old english and i was smashed!!!! i mean smashed!!!!! i could walk, focus, stand, see, nothing lol. so after a while i starting feeling sick so i kinda threw up lol. and then i was fine and then we were chillin it was me, K, her boyfriend and another friend who we can call S. well me and s have known each other for a while now and everything and it was suuper fun hanging out with her. and before i threw up we were making out. lol i made out with S, with K's boyfriend (dont worry shes fine with it lol) and K!! it was sooo fun! usually i get kinda grossed out with the whole tongue in my mouth thing but it didnt bother me i guess because i was in the moment and everything was awesome lol. but anyways thats not the interesting part lol

so me and S were just chillin on the bed we made out a little more (after i brushed my teethe though haha) and we were talking about how im a virgin and how i need to lose that lol. so we all decided my virginity was gonna be gone by the end of the night lol. so we were making out and then we all decided we needed condoms so we were gonna go to the store and then i threw up again lol. so after i was done with that and me and K were talking and saying how we were both ok with what was gonna happen and everything i brushed my teeth again and then me and S went into the room and she was taking my clothes off because we pretty much decided we were having sex tonight lol and she was feeling me up and everything and heres the part i can only share with my blog followers. it wasnt working!!! i wasnt working down there! idk what happened or what but down there was not working out for me so good. if you know what i mean. so after a while of feeling it up and then she sucked on it a little bit it got a little excited and then we put a condom on and then she got on top of me and then we tried and then.....guess what happened.....it died again lol.

it was sooo lame! we were both naked i felt her up she was feeling me up everything was good and then she got on top and it just went....dead lol.

now idk why it happened im guess probably because i was hammered lol. but idk....but she totally knows how i like boys and i am more attracted to boys than girls and so she understood so she set me up with this gay bpy she knows who is really cute. im sure it wouldnt turn into something more than just a fling but i know i would want my first time to be with someone hot lol. and believe me he is lol. we were texting a little bit and everything and hes really nice. and seems like a good boyfriend but he told me hes not really looking for a boyfriend so thats totally fine with me.

but the sad thing is i couldnt do it! i totally had my chance to have sex and it totally wasnt happening. which is ok S is my friend and idk what it would have down if we actually did do it but i guess we will never know lol

but i am starting to ramble and kinda fall asleep typing so i will post tomorrow and see if i remeber everything anyways lol.